Desire for God despite our spiritual blindness

By Fr. Roy Cimagala

THE story of the blind Bartimaeus who reacted strongly upon hearing that Christ was passing by (cfr. Mk 10,46-52) reminds us that despite our blindness to spiritual and supernatural realities, there remains in the heart of man, as created by God, an innate desire for him.

This truth of our faith is clearly articulated in the Catechism of the Catholic Church which says: “The desire for God is written in the human heart, because man is created by God and for God; and God never ceases to draw man to himself.” (#27)

Just the same, this desire for God can be thwarted by a variety of reasons and, thus, cause bad consequences. So, let’s just prepare for the worst scenario and try our best to imitate Christ himself who, in redeeming us, prepared himself for the worst. In fact, he already knew about his death and how it was to be.

Toward this end, we should just make sure that our love of God is always vibrant. We have to make it grow day by day. We have to feel that love so intensely such that it is actually what would energize us in any endeavor we have.

We have to see to it that we do not take this love for granted. This is the best and ultimate weapon we have to prepare for the worst scenario in our life. With this love, we would be willing to go through what Christ himself went through—suffering all the indignities of the world and ultimately dying on the cross.

But then, after death, there is the resurrection, the final victory that is meant for all of us, irrespective of how we fare in this life.

Just the same, given our fickle and fragile human condition here on earth, we have to feel the need to feed our desire for God daily. We know all too well that such desire, when we have it, would not last long unless we do something to keep it burning. We are notorious for being easily carried away by merely worldly and temporal interests.

Toward this end, we should avail of certain spiritual exercises, like prayer, sacrifices and mortifications, recourse to the sacraments, continuing spiritual and doctrinal formation, etc., to develop in us a true and deep devotion, sharpening our attraction always to Christ.

It’s important to realize that the net effect of all these should be a strong and abiding feeling of intimacy with God, a strong attraction to him. We should not allow our attractions to stop at the level of some earthly and temporal goods only.  It should be God and his will and ways that should attract us most.

Let’s always remember that if it is not God who attracts us, then it would be something else. And that something else can be none other than what is opposed to God. Remember Christ saying, “Whoever is not with me is against me…” (Mt 12,30)

We should be always mindful of our need to have the proper focus in our life. We should do everything to be able to have that focus, given the fact that in our earthly life, we cannot help but get immersed in so many earthly and temporal things. We need to sharpen our longing for God in every circumstance of our life.

In this way, we can remain faithful in pursuing the real and ultimate purpose and mission of our life.

Email: roycimagala@gmail.com